Eu voi fi ultima – Nadia Murad

[RO] „Eu voi fi ultima – povestea captivitatii mele si lupta mea impotriva statului islamic” este autobiografia Nadiei Murad, o tanara yazidita care a devenit victima a abuzurilor sexuale ale ISIS. Ea ne prezinta credinta, modul de viata al semenilor ei in acel sat mic, incercarile si gandurile ei de cand au inceput zvonurile legate de un atac pana cand a ajuns  ambasador ONU si castigator al Premiului Nobel pentru pace in 2018, impreuna cu Denis Mukwege.

Contextul religios : Yazidiții reprezintă un grup religios de etnie kurda ce traiesc cu precadere in provincia Mosul, Irak. Ei cred in Dumnezeu, Creator al lumii, lume pe care a pus-o sub vegherea celor sapte îngeri sau fiinte divine, in fruntea carora se afla Melek Taws, IÎngerul Păun”.

  • cred ca se trag din Adam, in timp ce restul lumii se trage din Eva
  • nu se convertesc si se casatoresc doar cu oameni cu aceeasi religie. In plus, evita sa petreaca timp cu cei de alte religii
  • cred in reincarnare
  • doctrinele yazidite se afla în conflict cu cele islamice pentru ca, in timp ce acestia considera ca cele sapte fiinte divine ii protejeaza, credinta islamica considera ca fiintele divine sunt diavoli

Pe 3 August 2014 luptatorii ISIS au ocupat communitatea Yazidi din regiunea Sinjar si in doar cateva zile au ucis peste  3,000 oameni si au rapit peste 6,000 femei si copii, pe care i-au tinut in captivitate ca sclavi sexuali.

Cu greu mi-as fi putut imagina ca oamenii pot trata alti oameni asa, in special din motive religioase. Nadia a fost una in femeile norocoase care a supravietuit unui asemenea chin, si probabil aceste amintiri o vor urmari toata viata. Recunosc ca am citit cartea pe parcursul a mai multor zile, am avut nevoie de pauze si de putina realitate intre scenele crude descrise. Daca eu nu am reusit macar sa citesc aceasta carte fara sa ma cutremur, oare ea cum a reusit sa traiasca asa ceva?

Exista si un dar in toata povestea astea, niste intrebari pe care mi le-am pus si la care inca incerc sa gasesc un raspuns fara judecati de valoare:

  1. Inca de cand au inceput zvonurile legate de acest masacru, oamenii din sat au refuzat sa il paraseasca. Inainte ca toti acesti oameni sa fie ucisi, li s-a dat posibilitatea sa se converteasca. Oare merita sa ramai legat de un loc si de o religie, chiar daca stii ca asta iti pune in pericol viata?
  2. Oamenii din localitatile in care erau tinute prizoniere femeile au ales de cele mai multe ori sa nu faca nimic, si autoarea ii condamna in nenumarate randuri pentru pasivitatea lor. Oare noi sau ea, daca eram in locul lor, am fi reusit sa trecem de aceasta frica si ne-am fi pus vietile in pericol pentru altii? Mi-ar placea sa cred ca da, insa dupa razboi multi viteji se arata
  3. Femeile care au fost tinete ca sclave sexuale se temeau sa nu fie omorate la intoarcerea la familiile lor, pentru ca nu mai erau virgine. Oare religia nu ar trebui sa fie despre iertare, intelegere si dragoste? Cu ce e mai bun un tata care isi omoara fiica cu pietre pentru ca a fost o sclava sexuala decat cei care au violat-o?

Daca ti-a placut, iti recomand si :

  1. Jurnalul Annei Frank –  povestea unei fetite care se ascunde impreuna cu familia timp de 2 ani in podul casei, fuging de nazisti. Cartea a fost publicata de tatal ei, singur supravietuitor al familiei. Un citat din carte mi-a ramas in minte si m-a impresionat :

In asta consta in buna masură diferenta dintre mama si mine. Sfatul ei împotriva melancoliei este: „Gandeste-te la toate nenorocirile din lume si fii fericita ca nu treci tu prin ele”. Sfatul meu este: „Iesi afara, mergi in camp, in natura si soare. Iesi afara si încearca sa regasesti fericirea in tine. Gandeste-te la tot ce-i frumos in tine, in jurul tau si fii fericita!”.

2. Eu sunt Malala- Malala Yousafzai – Malala este cea mai tanara castigatoare a premiului Nobel pentru pace, dupa ce a fost impuscata in cap de talibani, intr-o perioada in care femeilor din Pakistan li se interzicea sa mearga la scoala sau sa meraga singure pe strada. Inca de atunci Malala schimba lumea putin cate putin si reprezinta vocea tinerelor care isi doresc acces la educatie, indiferent de religie.

Read and be happy 🙂


[EN] The last girl – my story captivity and my fight against the Islamic state” is the autobiography of Nadia Murad, a young Yazidi who has become the victim of sexual abuse of ISIS. It shows us the faith, life in her small village, her thoughts since the rumors of an attack until she became UN Ambassador and Nobel Peace Prize Winner in 2018, along with Denis Mukwege.

Religious context: The Yazidi are a Kurdish religious group living predominantly in the province of Mosul, Iraq. They believe in God, the Creator of the world, a world he put under the watchful eye of the seven angels in front with Melek Taws, the „Peacock Angel”.

  • they think they’re descending from Adam, while the rest of the world is descending from Eve
  • they do not convert and marry only people with the same religion. In addition, they avoid spending time with people from other religions
  • they believe in reincarnation
  • the yazidite doctrine is in conflict with the Islamic ones because, while they consider the seven divine beings to protect them, Islamic beliefs consider divine beings to be devils

On August 3rd, 2014, ISIS fighters occupied the Yazidi community in the Sinjar region and in just a few days they killed over 3,000 people and kidnapped over 6,000 women and children, whom they held captive as sex slaves.

I could hardly imagine that people can treat other people like this, especially for religious reasons. Nadia was one of the lucky women who survived such horror, and perhaps these memories will follow her whole life. I admit that I`ve read the book in several days, I needed pauses and a little reality between the rough scenes described. If I did not even manage to read this book without pauses, how did she manage to live like this?

There is also a but in all this story, some questions that I ask myself and I`m still trying to find answears, without judgments of value:

  1. Ever since the rumors of the massacre began, people in the village have refused to leave. Before all these people were killed, they were given the opportunity to convert. Is it worth it to stay connected with a place and a religion, even if you know that this is life-threatening?
  2.   People in the areas where women were held captive often chose to do nothing, and the author condemned them in many ways for their passivity. Would we or she, if we were in their place, have managed to get through the fear and put our lives in jeopardy for others? I would love to think so, but anyone can hold the helm when the sea is calm.
  3.  Women who were sexual slaves were afraid of being killed when returning to their families because they were no longer virgins. Should religion not be about forgiveness, understanding, and love? How is better a father who kills his daughter with stones because she was a sex slave than those who raped her?

If you liked it, I also recommend:

  1. Anne Frank’s diary –  the story of a girl who is hiding with her family for two years in the attic of the house, fleeing the Nazis. The book was published by her father, the only survivor of the family. A book quote remained in my mind and impressed me:

This is where Mother and I differ greatly. Her advice in the face of melancholy is: „Think about all the suffering in the world and be thankful you’re not part of it.” My advice is: „Go outside, to the country, enjoy the sun and all nature has to offer. Go outside and try to recapture the happiness within yourself; think of all the beauty in yourself and in everything around you and be happy.”

2. I am Malala-Malala Yousafzai – Malala is the youngest Nobel Peace Prize winner after she was shot in the head by talibans at a time when Pakistan women were forbidden to go to school or to walk alone on the streets. Since then, Malala has changed the world piece by piece and represents the voice of young women who want access to education, regardless of religion.

Red and be happy 🙂

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